I looked
into the mirror
yesterday
and I couldn’t
see myself
so I
walked outside
to the rainy streets
and peered
in foggy puddles
but I couldn’t
see myself
so I
ran to my
friend’s room
and asked him
if I was there
he didn’t say anything
back to me
so I went to my room
and fell asleep
naked
and
free.
chewing through your
corn filled shit,
I broke my wrist
fisting my way out
of the annals of
your deceits
I broke my leg
running in concentric
circles, falling
over those thin, low-lying
trip-cables you see
in heist movies that
may or may not actually exist.
I broke my neck
sticking it out of
a fast moving train car.
I didn’t see that brick
barrier coming so fucking fast.
I broke my arm
weaving webs of lies
to escape the ones
you trapped me in
But I won’t break
my heart for you,
and I wont’ break
my balls for you.
Those I’ll save to break
myself, when I’m tired
of using them
for my own
selfish pleasures.
I saw her
laugh
and I loved her.
A stuffed
dove
with the mating
call on
repeat.
on repeat.
A diabolical
angel
playing a detuned
harp
in hell.
But I knew no better.
So what if
I stuck my
hand in a bowl
of colors
and came out with
the popcorn
jelly belly.
At least I got laid.
